anjing lu gi.

gerah. semua seperti menentang, waktu menentang, tempat dan jarak menentang, rasa menantang, kondisi menentang. sampai ketika hanya teks pendek yang bisa aku pegang, itu juga menentang, pergi. seperti ada mesin pencuci otak yang sangat besar mau menghapus semuanya. gerah rasanya. akan sejuk jika semua ditemukan lagi-cara untuk bertahan-akan sejuk sungguh. rasa ini terlalu usang, tapi nyaman. janjinya terlampau usang, tapi nyaman. hatinya terlalu usang, tapi nyaman, aiusmad.

there are times when you just wanted to get home into your bedroom, close the door, fall into bed, just let everything out that you kept in all day. that feeling of desperation, you are scared you are confused you are tired. tired of confusing. you just wanted someone to be there to tell you that you have allah, that everything is going to be okay. but no one takes the place be there for you then. you know you have to be strong, you know that this is worthy you know that you are leaving home for good reason. when you feel broken but no one can fix you. you know you have to be strong, but you are tired of being strong. for once you just want it to be easy. to be simple. to be helped. to be saved. but you know you won’t be. but you are still hoping still wishing. you are fighting. and its going to be okay.

How God remains there, how He saves you from the illusion of life

How He is He

How He be the almighty

aku mau pergi

-lalu?

jauh sekali, 28 jam 45 menit! sejauh itu. 800 km/jam

-lalu?

sejenak berhenti, disini, bagi dirimu untuk aku

-macam anjing kurap saja. kau melankolis

-melunguh lunguh kegatalan

sebentar saja rasakan hari ini

teriknya, bisingnya, romantisnya kota

ikan ikan busuk dicampur kecap. es krim, mahasiswa, roti roti, buku

beli buku. lihat sarunya antara lelaki dan perempuan

sarunya antara dihargai dan dilabeli

-sungguh berlebihan, ini bukan kiamat, kau masih didunia yang sama

tapi jauh.

rasa paling besar yang aku rasakan. apakah jangan jangan dunia ini sudah terlalu usang hingga seluruh sistem rasa harus mengadopsi keabsurditas rasa ini lalu ditumpahkan

rasakan, diami, hinggapi, hidupi!

-sungguh kau tak lebih dari seseorang yang akan aku lihat punggungnya pergi. ini perjuangan nak

mama, ke gramedia yu beli buku buat aku bawa ke turki..

allah maha baik

allah maha baik

allah maha baik

maka aku akan menjauh karena aku bawa dampak buruk. biarkan itu urusannya dengan allah.

allah maha mengerti

maha memberi

Young and full of running,
tell me where is that taking me
just a great figure eight
or a tiny infinity.

Love is really nothing
but a dream that keeps waking me.
For all of my trying
we still end up dying;
how can it be?

Don’t say a word; just come over and lie here with me
‘cause I’m just about to set fire to everything I see.

I want you so bad I’ll go back on the things I believe.
There, I just said it; I’m scared you’ll forget about me.

So young and full of running
all the way to the edge of desire.
Steady my breathing, silently screaming
I have to have you now.

Wired and I’m tired;
think I’ll sleep in my clothes on the floor.
Or maybe this mattress will spin on its axis
and find me on yours.

Don’t say a word;just come over and lie here with me
‘cause I’m just about to set fire to everything I see.

I want you so bad I’ll go back on the things I believe.
There, I just said it; I’m scared you’ll forget about me.

Don’t say a word;just come over and lie here with me
‘cause I’m just about to set fire to everything I see.

I want you so bad I’ll go back on the things I believe.
There, I just said it;I’m scared you’ll forget about me.

yet a simple believe in you would just do fine

begin by teaching them one very important fact that many moslems forgotting about, that is that Allah SWT, one of His attribute is the most loving.

and we forget about that particular attribute too many times. we forget that Allah loves us and many moslems want to avoid that constancy. we should not forget the fact that Allah SWT loves us because He is the most loving. it is His nature to love us.

He love us not because we deserve His love or we done anything to earn His love, but because it is His nature to love. it is one of His attribute, the characteristic of Him.

He is the most loving

He is the definition of word love, unqualified, unquantifiable love

I love You too ♥

Day after day
Time passed away
And I just can’t get you off my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can’t find

The courage to show to letting you know
I’ve never felt so much love before

And once again I’m thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? ([Shane:] oh yeah)
How will I know
if I let you go?

Night after night I hear myself say
Why can’t this feeling just fade away
There’s no one like you (no one like you)
You speak to my heart (speak to my heart)
It’s such a shame we’re worlds apart

I’m too shy to ask, I’m too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I’m thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? (oh yeah)
How will I know
if I let you go ?

If I let you go ooooh baby
Ooooooooohhhhh

Once again I’m thinking about
Taking the easy way out
Ooooooooohhhhh

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
(close to me)
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
(oh yeah)
How will I know
(if I let you go?)
But if I let you go I will never know
(oh baby)
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
(oh yeah)
How will I know
if I let you go ?